Sunday, November 27, 2011

smile


had a sleepover at Nami's
stop by home just now, in the afternoon

car stopped. gate opened.
and a figure so familiar came out
with a smile..with a wide smile...
a smile so sweet that my heart melted..

father, i might not do well in my tests
but my love for you never get any less

Saturday, November 26, 2011

don't



again. be good. stay there. don't fall. don't.

the unexpressed

ini bunga, aunty sebelah rumah kasi :)



couldn't find any arrangement of alphabets that could portray what the heart wishes to say


speechless and tearful

crawling back to fitrah

to myself - an abid, a caliph

and to see that me in me prevails

the me the world made me be
(sorry i blame you 'world', it's my fault actually)

....heartbreaking


“To be nobody but yourself in a world that's doing its best to make you somebody else, is to fight the hardest battle you are ever going to fight. Never stop fighting.” (E. E. Cummings)












ya Allah, let my love for you transcends all.

Monday, November 21, 2011

caring


"My wife has been surfing the internet of late  and has been reading quite a lot about dyslexia. Just wanted to let you know."

"Why tell me?"

"Well, I didn't want you to think that we are parents who don't really bother or care about their kids."


"Caring.
It's very important, Mr Awasthi.
It has the power to heal. Like a balm that soothes pain.
The child feels reassured that someone cares for him.
An occasional hug, a loving kiss. Just to show that I really care.
"My child, I love you. If you have any troubles, come to me.  

So what if you slipped, messed up? I'm there for you."
That assurance. Caring.
Isn't that how one would describe caring, Mr Awasthi?



-Taare Zameen Par-

Saturday, November 19, 2011

cinta, mujahadah dan tauhid



speaking of cinta.
chupp! mahu quote sesuatu dari blog seseorang -
"Dakwah adalah cinta. Dan cinta akan meminta semuanya dari dirimu." :)
the interesting part is - cinta akan meminta semuanya dari dirimu. quite true...kan?
people do crazy things for love. love, as they call it. kadang2 rasa love is so underrated these days...hmm..ok that's another thing. regarding, crazy things love could make one do, cukuplah dengar lagu Grenade saja. haha catch a grenade for you, jump in front of a train for you and yadda yadda. extreme gitu. dan bak kata matluhfi, ada perbezaan di antara pengorbanan dan kebodohan. anyway, the point is, cinta punya kuasa (dan sudah tentu yang maha memiliki segala sesuatu dan yang maha kuasa...cuma satu..Dia <3) back to the power of love, it can make people do extraordinary things. things people never thought they would and/or could do. yang susah boleh jadi mudah. yang pahit boleh jadi manis and it's interesting to see/watch/feel how love brought up the best in us.
and as we often dengar - love conquers all. 

speaking of mujahadah.
bak quotation yang selalu kita encounter - mujahadah itu pahit kerana syurga itu manis. dan mujahadah ni forever terkenal dengan kepahitannya. asal sebut mujahadah, mesti terlintas pahit, payah, susah et cetera. kalau mujahadah ni diumpamakan sebuah movie, confirm masuk genre horror. tapi...rasanya genre horror tak cukup lagi sebab ramai yang mampu tengok citer horror tapi when it comes to mujahadah, rasa tak mampu. *lari pergi tengok diri kat cermin* hmmm... persepsi bahawa mujahadah itu payah...ok memang tak mudah sebab Rasulullah s.a.w. pun pernah bersabda - Syurga dipagari dengan kepayahan manakala neraka dipagari dengan keseronokan. (Muslim & Tirmizi). anyway, persepsi bahawa mujahadah itu payah membuatkan ianya terasa payah. sudahlah payah, di-encourage pulak tu. bukan setakat di-encourage, many things require mujahadah. payah ni.... but actually kan, kalau refer surah al-Balad dalam love letters compilation, from my point of view,antara message yang disampaikan tu something like - It's not gonna be easy but it'll be worth it. And that is His promise :)

speaking of tauhid.
wikipedia kata, in brief - Tauhid menurut bahasa ertinya mengetahui dengan sebenarnya Allah itu Ada lagi Esa. Menurut istilah, tauhid ialah satu ilmu yang membentangkan tentang wujudullah (adanya Allah) dengan sifat2-Nya. boleh dikatakan, tauhid ni...part of it is macam getting to know Him. and perihal tentang ilmu tauhid banyak di-mention dalam surah makkiyah, meaning surah yang diturunkan di Makkah. kalau tengok balik history, Islam pada mulanya diturunkan di Makkah. dan masa tu, Allah turunkan ayat-ayat yang much about sort of mengenalkan diriNya. dan masa tu kalau tengok balik history, para sahabat...kuatnya cinta mereka pada Allah. Abu Bakar as-Siddiq contohnya, seperti dalam hadis yang penulis tak ingat exactly macam mana, ada di-mention bahawa jika ditimbang imannya dengan iman seluruh penduduk bumi, tidak terbanding. (correct me if I'm wrong) awesome kan Abu Bakar as-Siddiq. And there's one more story, masa pergi majlis iftar bersama muallaf haritu, one of the muallaf cerita pengalamannya jatuh cinta dengan islam which is melalui surah al-Ikhlas, surah dimana Allah s.w.t. sort of memperkenalkan tentangNya.

Katakanlah (Muhammad), Dialah Allah yang Maha Esa. Allah tempat meminta segala sesuatu (al-Ikhlas 1-2)

cinta bermula dengan perkenalan. tak kenal maka tak cinta. 
perkenalan itu tauhid. yang membawa kepada cinta. dan nature cinta, ianya memampukan pencinta untuk willing melakukan hampir apa saja. instead of memandang pada mujahadah, mungkin belajar mencintai lebih indah dan dengan mencintai, secara tidak langsung mujahadah datang sekali :)

mujahadah dan mencintai
pahit mujahadah yang datang bersama rasa cinta itu somehow boleh jadi tolerable, insha-Allah.
kerana cinta itu indah.


macam strawberry celup coklat. 
masam yang datang dengan manis itu somehow tolerable.
kerana overallnya sedap.


“Sedangkan Tuhan kamu ialah Tuhan Yang Maha Esa, tidak ada Tuhan melainkan Dia Yang Maha Pengasih lagi Maha Penyayang” (2:163)

Sunday, November 13, 2011

hellogoodbye

goodbye naproxen
goodbye mefenamic acid

hello mixture magnesium trisilicate
hello ranitidine

Saturday, November 12, 2011

selalu ada






tanya sama pokok
apa sebab goyang
jawab angin yang goncang
terbang burung terbang
patah sayap diduga
seandainya rebah
Kau masih ada

dan selalu ada.


"...maka jangan katakan pada Allah
 aku punya masalah tetapi
katakan pada masalah
aku punya Allah yang Maha Segalanya."
-Saidina Ali b. Abi Talib-

muslim






merah jingga kuning hijau biru indigo ungu
warna warna pelangi yang kita manusia ketahui
yang sejak lama dulu dipancar oleh sang matahari
namun hujanlah yang zahirkan ketujuhnya pada mata
subhanallah. hebat kuasaNya.

"Menjadi muslim adalah menjadi kain putih. Lalu Allah mencelupnya menjadi warna ketegasan, kesejukan, keceriaan, dan cinta; rahmat bagi semesta alam. Aku jadi rindu pada pelangi itu, pelangi yang memancarkan celupan warna Ilahi. Telah tiba saatnya, derai berkilau Islam tak lagi terpisahkan dari pendar menawan seorang muslim. Dan saksikan bahwa aku seorang muslim."

suatu ketika dahulu membaca tentangnya disini
celupan warna Ilahi pada susuk-susuk mukminin yang hebat
"Celupan warna Allah, dan siapakah yang lebih baik celupan warnanya daripada Allah?
Dan hanya kepadaNyalah kami menyembah" 2:138

Salim A. Fillah - Saksikan bahwa Aku Seorang Muslim.


Thursday, November 10, 2011

tagged

Kak Tini...
allow me to violate the terms and conditions :D
i'll just follow rule #3. can ehh... hehe



Rule #3 - Answer the questions the tagger set for you

What languages can you speak?
Malay of courseee.. saya anak Malaysia ^^ English and a lil bit of this and that
 
When did you start blogging?
Refer archive ------------------>
 
3 facts about your room.
it was my sister's. now, jadi my jajahan. it has a blue curtain, sis's fav colour dulu2. and...umm.. what else..it has an attached bathroom :D


What clothes are you wearing right now?
green shirt, brown pants. ok, i feel like a tree =.="""


What do you like to do in your spare time?
it depends....but at the moment I kinda miss reading, writing, cooking, baking and all the Ramadhan activities during my super long (approx 9 month) holiday before continuing my studies.

Any good songs to recommend?
ohhh a lot.... but anyway.. listened to this song few days back and found it kinda soothing to hear and the lyrics are...hmmm :) beautiful...


3 things that cross your mind now
#1 - dear heart, are u ok in there, have you taken your shower. #2 - dear tummy, i know you're hungry, wait a sec, lemme finish this. #3 - dear upcoming quizzes..I..uh..I... =.="


Last person you cried in front of? 
err..me daddy..kowt? hee~

Do you get jealous easily?
in what kind of situation...? about what..? in what sense? in what context?  *running around the bush and jump to the next Q..hehehe*


What do you want at the moment?
i think i say it best when i say nothing at all... allow me to let the thoughts stay in heart & mind.


Describe my blog (the tagger's blog) in three words
cute macam owner-nya ^^ (boleh tak jawab macam ni, cikgu Tini? hehe)



"Kadangkala sesuatu nikmat itu tidak dirasai melainkan setelah merasai lawannya"
lupa pula kata2 siapa, namun rasanya, hidup sedang mengajar diri, enaknya lapang masa