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Gambar ini tentang cerita bulan Jun.
Kerana sebuah ciuman tanpa cinta dalam gelap malam tanpa sengaja. Kerana sebuah ciuman yang berharga sembilan keping wang kertas lima puluh. Kerana sebuah ciuman tragis sebuah pacuan empat roda pada sedan empat pintu. Because of all the wrong things that were (probably) the right ones to happen.
Dan buku itu percuma, dari tangan yang menulis sepertiganya dengan pesan tulus ikhlas, priceless.
(Balik Pulau, Jun 2012)

28

I asked a 5-year-old how to spell "awan".

Here's what she gave me -

A-W-A-N-G, Awan!

Then I asked her "Cuba teka kakak umur berapa?"

She took some time to think then she said "28!"

"Kenapa 28..?"

"Sebab 28 tu banyak..."

Boleh tak nak blame the tudung 'makcik' aka the instant tudung I was wearing masa tu =.="

Macam dulu

Kelmarin dulu, dari sebuah soalan, akhirnya aku dan mama Saif berbual panjang dan perbualan itu turut menyangkut cerita masa lalu milik aku, sesuatu yang jarang mahu aku bicara dewasa ini meski flashes of the buried memories appear in mind at very very high frequency. Malu rasanya bila dibicarakan kembali perihal corengan hitam lama, karya buruk milik aku dalam melakar kehidupan dahulu. Sudah cantik ya kini? Tidak juga, cuma telah sedar, yang dahulu aku fikir indah itu amat jelek. Entah bagaimana jika buku amalan catatan sang malaikat di bahu kiri dibaca out loud T.T

Meski begitu, aku rasa karya buruk itu priceless kerana ada perkara yang aku mungkin takkan kenal dan hargai jika aku tak merasa yang sebaliknya. Dalam buruk itu, ada terselit juga indahnya yang cukuplah sekadar aku simpan jadi kenangan. Ada perkara yang aku tak bisa baiki walau semahu mana aku. Takdir Tuhan tak pernah sia-sia, aku percaya.

Kata mama Saif pada aku - Jangan jadi macam dulu.

Insha-Allah.

10 kali
Ada pihak yang melaporkan bahawa ada penulisanku yang setelah dibaca 10 kali baru dapat difahami. Just so you know, I am not as complicated as my writings...err..hope so :D

Di Tepi Sungai Piedra Aku Duduk dan Meratap
Just finished reading Paulo Coelho's By the River Piedra I Sat Down and Wept. The storyline was nice. Apart from lessons about life, it gives me an insight about Christianity, catholicism and a little bit about trinity. And of course those in some ways or many ways are not parallel with Islam and actually made me see how Islam really makes sense, how it fits the fitrah of human being, how oft-forgiving, Most Merciful Allah is. Anyhow, "For you is your religion, for me is mine" (109:6). Still, I like some of the ideas about finding God presented in the novel :)

"because the spiritual path can only be traveled through the daily experience of love"

"...God is wherever we allow Him to enter"

"In order to find God, you have only to look around"

And oh, there's this one description of 'falling in love' which was put forward in the novel through the main character, Pilar.

"I've been in love before. It's like a narcotic. At first it brings the euphoria of complete surrender. The next day, you want more. You're not addicted yet, but you like the sensation, and you think you can still control things. You think about the person you love for two minutes and forget them for three hours. But then you get used to that person, and you begin to be completely dependent on them. Now you  think about him for three hours and forget him in two minutes. It he's not there, you feel like an addict who can't get a fix. And just as addicts steal and humiliate themselves to get what they need, you're willing to do anything for love."

"What a horrible way to put it", says the person Pilar was talking to.

But that's what commonly occurring in the reality. Cukup saja menonton drama Ameera untuk melihat. Drama juga punya realiti sebagai inspirasi, ya kan? Pengecualian pada genre sci-fi. Unhealthy love. I am no exception. I'd love to quote Wardina from the forum Where is the Love. Can't remember the exact words but the message, as I interpret it, is something like this - To love healthily, one must have a healthy heart and a healthy heart is a heart that remembers Allah, always :)

Cendol
Testimoni pendek: Cendol Cherok Tokun sedap. I had the kacang-less and pulut-less one :D

Countdown
Ramadhan, 10 hari lagi :D