Ramadhan

Penaga, 2013

There was the time when Ramadhan is just a month that comes and would eventually go. And me? Not so much affected. Then there was the time when I fast to fill my piggy bank with RM1 coins. There was also the time when I fast because mama said I should and because most of my peers pun puasa.There was the time when puasa is not eating in front of human. In front of human je. There was the time when puasa has to be penuh because barulah namanya puasa penuh. 

There was the time when puasa penuh is just because it's an obligation. There was the time when I accept reading quran as part of tradition during the month of Ramadhan. Then there was the time when finishing quran during Ramadhan is so cool that reading quran during Ramadhan means speeding from al-Baqarah to an-Nas at highest speed possible. Tajwid? Halal ah. Tadabbur? Tadabbur tu apadia?

There was the time when tarawih is....what tarawih? Then there was the time when tarawih is pray and play. Pray sikit, play banyak. There was also the time when tarawih is something to find various reasons not to attend. Like there are better things to do while there aren't. There were times when tarawih is oh-it's-good-you're-going-i-guess-i'll-just-stay. 

Well, everyone have their 'days'. And as years passed, we are brought through many stages in life to where we are today. Alhamdulillah, for again, Allah gave the chance to be in Ramadhan, a month whose beginning is mercy, its middle, forgiveness and its end, emancipation from hellfire. A month full of blessings. My mind kind of picture the blessing like shining coins/points in games like Super Mario in which you have to jump up and down to grab them. They are just there waiting for us to grab. And Ramadhan, in a way, is like three waves with the first being the one which brings Allah's mercy and the next one brings Allah's forgiveness and the last one may take you away from an-Nar. Subhanallah. And it's up to us to open our hearts and let these waves flow in, splish splash here there and everywhere and leave it, if not thoroughly, cleaner than before. May we be able to leave Ramadhan with cleaner hearts and rejuvenated iman. May it be :)